140918 B1A4 Road Trip in Melbourne, Australia [Fan Account]

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B1A4 are a group I like a lot and once I heard that they were coming to Australia I was definitely prepared to go! I gathered up a bunch of friends from school that like K-Pop to go with me~ ^^ A lot of things happened before we got to the venue so if you’re reading this fan account for info on the concert and their performances, just skip through the first few paragraphs. (^^)b

B1A4's Road Trip promotional posters

B1A4’s Road Trip promotional posters

The concert was set on the 18th of September, Thursday, which was the last day of school for me so I was considering taking the day off since my two friends Jana & Karleen were already going to. However, I wasn’t allowed to wag the whole day so I left school early to get ready in time and get to the venue. I got to the train station at around 3:30pm…

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Japan Trip 2013: Day 3, Friday, 21st of September

Day 3 account of my travels in Japan! This was the day where we got to do some more exploring and shopping, truly experiencing the Japanese lifestyle!~ ^^ Some of the funniest events happened on this day.

This time we went to visit Himeji Castle and had a long walk around and a look inside. There were so many different rooms to the castle so there was heaps of exhibits to look at. Looking back on it now, I don’t even know why I took so many pictures of the stuff on display. XD Hehe, I suppose on the spare of the moment you start to think that you need to take a photo of everything since you won’t have the chance later on.
I having heaps of fun with Karina that day, we were doing heaps of things together. There were times where I was by myself following the group but most of the time I remember walking with Karina and taking photos together. My feet were so sweaty and sore from all the walking we did. I was dying to sit down but when we were walking around the castle there was hardly anywhere to sit. (T_T) I really hated how all the walking in the hot weather made my feet sweaty! It’s so gross but I had to put up with it… ( ; ω ; )

All the fun I had with Karina that day included taking funny photos and our train ride. XD The train ride was the funniest thing because the trains are always so packed. Since there were no seats we had to stand, and we didn’t pick up on the whole ‘you gotta brace yourself for the stop part when standing on the train. >< It was literally amazing for us the watch those Japanese business men standing on the train, briefcases between their feet, and playing on their phones. (O_O) We totally couldn’t figure out how they managed that so we started trying not to hold onto anything and just stand on the train. What made things awkward was how Karina and I kept leaning into each other, face to face, close enough to touch. XD LOL! Our tour guide made these biting faces every time we reached for the pole to balance in the train so we would have to learn how to stand without falling back all the time. ><
In our conversation we were talking about the word ‘petite’ and I’ve never been able to pronounce it properly. Hehe, I’ve always read it as peh-tight and not peh-teet… (-_-) I know, I must sound like I total dumb ass but WHY WOULD THERE BE AN ‘E’ AT THE END IF YOU DON’T EVEN PRONOUNCE IT AS ‘ITE’ ANYWAY!! (´Д` ) Words like ‘bite’ and ‘site’ are spelt with the ‘ite’ and they’re pronounced like ‘tight’, I DON’T UNDERSTAND ENGLISH!! (´Д` )

Once we got off the train and out of the subway, it was our time for some shopping in Namba! ^^ Of course I had things I wanted to look at but when you’re practically by yourself and no one with the same interests as you, it’s hard to find the confidence to just go on your own and do those things. I ended up sticking with Emily most of the time because Kim went off with some other girls to shop for clothes. Seeing how my best friend and I have such different interests, it is hard to have fun with each other while going out like this. Emily and I walked about checking out the shops and taking some photos. We eventually caught up with Austin and Luke and went around with them.
In one of the buildings we were in, we found TSUTAYA which is a Japanese CD and DVD buy/rental store. That is where I found Yamashita Tomohisa’s A NUDE album and Super Junior’s Hero album!!~ (^ω^) I had never felt more happy and energetic than ever since being in Japan. I was literally running all over the store checking out the CDs. Haha, Emily was even saying that she needed a leash on me to calm me down. XD Guess what the first thing I saw was when we stepped on that floor from the escalator? A G-DRAGON STALL!! FULL OF HIS CDS!! It was like I walked onto the floor of my heaven and spent 11,000+ yen that day. XD Still, I have no regrets cause I got my SJ CD & DVD and a Yamapi poster as well as CD & DVD.
After we left, we found an arcade where Austin and Luke played Mario Cart while I filmed them. As we were exploring the arcade, we found a photo booth and I was dying to take some pictures with them!! It was one of the must-do-things on my Japan Bucket List. XD After doing some persuading, I got them all to take some pics with me but I couldn’t figure out how to get them to print… :/ LOL We were like looking around the booth for the printing slot but little did I know that there was an editing screen on either side of the booth with a countdown to edit the photos. (-_-) I had to do some speed editing and then the photos printed. (^_^; )

On the return to our hotel I got some spray to help with my terrible foot smell. (>_<) I know it sounds so gross but let me explain. Walking around so much all day in the same pair of shoes on top of the sweltering heat made my feet sweat a lot. And of course, the smell got worse. I don’t usually have smelly feet but it was becoming a problem while in Japan. This spray helped get rid of the smell but it didn’t smell so great itself. At least it did the job for the day. ><

Kim and I decided to do some of our laundry that night as some other girls were too. So many funny things happened this night while we tried doing our laundry. (≧∇≦)
I already took my shower and we were both in our pyjamas and our hair was still wet but we just went out of our rooms to the laundry as no one would really see us anyway still being in the hotel. We took the elevator down a few floors with Karleen and it opened to this group of Japanese people. XD They just stared at us in our pyjamas, wet hair and slippers and then the Japanese man started doing this weird hand gesture where he was like pushing his two hands back and forth. LOL All Kim had to say to that was “Okay…?” and she pressed the button to close the doors as the Japanese lady copied saying Kim’s “okay”.
Coming back to the elevator, we stopped at our floor and continued to our rooms. Karleen went to her room down the corridor from ours while we were talking about how we would come back for the laundry in a bit. While we were putting our cards through the reader at the door, we noticed that it wasn’t opening for some reason and the same thing was happening to Karleen… (<_<) Turns out, WE STOPPED AT THE WRONG FLOOR THINKING THOSE ROOMS WERE OURS AS EVERY FLOOR IS BASICALLY IDENTICAL!! XD LOL!! We all ended up running away back to the elevator from embarrassment! Haha, OMG what if someone was actually in those rooms noticing that we were trying to get in? >< Ahh~ fun. ^_^
I stayed in our hotel room while Kim went back out to check on the laundry one last time. When she came back she said that there was some fat Japanese guy in the laundry room who was wearing the supplied robes and slippers but it didn’t look like he had anything underneath… (O_O) EEEWWWW!!~~ Thank the lord I didn’t have to see that LOL!

Until Day 4 of Japan Trip,

Changes to the Blog

It’s been a while since I’ve updated this blog regularly because I’ve been busy with life and other blogs. (>_<)

I’ve made some changes to the blog too just for my convenience like anyone cares because no one reads this blog anyway.

I won’t be writing any posts on here in Japanese. I deleted all my Japanese posts, categories and tags. I use LINE and Lang-8.com now to write Japanese posts but don’t bother with looking at them. Writing in Japanese is just for my sake of practising and improving my Japanese. So, I’m leaving all the learning on a format that actually supports it instead of just confusing my blog by turning into a multi-purpose kind of thing.

I used to write about every week at school because back then I actually had the time and effort. XD Haha, now I’m just going to stick to venting out any issues I have or recounting some funny memories. I’ll probably do more posts about my progress with Japanese, other subjects at school and so on. Posting about every week at school was fun to do because I got more creative with how I write but it did become another pressure of mine as I became less able to update regularly. Also, my posts became too long winded and some are 5,000+ words. So that’s goodbye to that idea~ (-_-)/

I’m no longer going to post lyrics I’ve written on here. I’ve deleted that whole category and all the posts of my parodies. I don’t even have the time to write a song and it’s been months since I’ve written one. I’ll probably continue to write songs when I get the chance but I just won’t be posting them anymore.

I suppose I’m trying to keep this blog as tidy and to the point as it can be. You can expect that my posts will be a lot shorter too (hopefully if I don’t get carried away).

 I’m also still working on writing my posts about Japan Trip 2013. OMG I think it’s going to take me the whole year to finish. (-_-; ) But it will be done some time.

Japan Trip 2013: Day 2, Thursday, 20th of September

This is an account of Day 2 in Japan! I was still in Kyoto and it was the first day where we would go around and visit some temples. Of course, it was quite an eventful day with moments of embarrassment but good memories. ><

It was our first official going around and about day in Japan and we were visiting Kiyomizu Temple and Kinkakuji. After arriving at Kyoto station we took a bus to Kiyomizu Temple first. There were heaps of people jammed into this bus but most of my friends and I got a seat in the very back row and I was sitting right in the middle. More people continued to come onto the bus and there was this really tall Japanese guy who couldn’t get a seat so ended up having to stand in front of me. XD OMG He was so tall that he had to tilt his head so he could stand properly! >< And then my friends just had to say “you wish he would fall on top you don’t you? *pedo face*” OMG LOL NO! DON’T MAKE THE SITUATION WORSE FOR ME BY SAYING SOMETHING LIKE THAT! XD BAHAHAHAH!! Ahh, great times…

When we reached Kiyomizu Temple, the one thing I actually did was wash my hands in the basins. I forgot what the name of the street was but around all the temples was traditional kind of stores selling souvenirs. It was a really nice street and I also found this one shop selling Japanese singers’ merchandise like posters and stuff. Hehe, I totally freaked out when I saw the ONE OK ROCK poster because it reminded me of Taryn instantly and I wanted to buy it for her~~ >< Since it was so hot, getting something cold to eat was a godsend. Thankfully, Karina, Kim and I found this かき氷/kaki go-ori/shaved ice store where we got three cones of the rainbow flavoured kaki go-ori. The worst thing to happen to us was… >< OMG I still cringe when I think about it! One of us dropped the kaki go-ori on the floor and I couldn’t think of how to tell the lady at the counter that we dropped it and heaps of people in the line must have been staring at us thinking “Omg~ these gaijin are so dysfunctional, shame on them. How could you do this in my country?” I was so ashamed but there was nothing I could do in the circumstance so we just had to run away!! (T_T) *hides in shame and guilt*

We took a lot of buses to get to all the different temples and we actually ran out of time to visit one of them. On the way to Kinkaku-ji we found this sign saying “Please use a toilet finely”. It was one of the best Engrish we found but sadly I didn’t take a photo of it. Our tour guide John chose the Love Temple for us to visit. There is a rock at one end and you have to walk towards with your eyes closed. If you reach it, it means that you will find love in your life or something like that. I kind of forgot what it was for and I didn’t want to try walking towards it. There were so many people around and it would be certain for me to bump into someone because whenever I have to walk with my eyes closed I take the smallest of steps and turn in weird directions without guidance. Karina and Kim had I go at it I believe and there was a group of Japanese school girls guiding each other too. One of the girls reached the rock but her friends told her to keep going and she bumped into Oliver! Haha, they were all laughing and acting shy. I have a strong suspicion that they probably thought he would be her true love, sadly I don’t think they’ll ever see each other again. ( ; ω ; )

Aaaanyway~ at our stop for lunch John taught us some useful Japanese! ^^ ベツバラ/betsubara meaning ‘other stomach’ came into the conversation since I wanted to eat a desert with my lunch. Hehe, I always love eating sweets so I was tempted while looking through the menu. He told us to say it when eating with our host families since it’s a Japanese slang word they would be impressed that we know it. From that we all started getting into conversations about phrases in different languages. It was actually a really enjoyable lunch having the tour guide there to help us out. I had fried chicken with a salad. In the hot weather other there, a decent meal worked wonders in getting my energy up and curing my headache.

On another bus ride home or back to Kyoto Station, there was one elderly Japanese man on the bus asking Kim where she was from. He turned to her and went “America?”, and she replied, “No, we’re from Australia.”



“Aaahh~~ *nod nod*”

It was one of the cutest things I witnessed. XD Since it was near impossible for us to get a seat on the bus we always had to stand and hold onto something to stop us from dying. >< In those crowded buses I couldn’t help but get really sweaty hands while holding onto the bars. I felt really embarrassed and thought that all these Japanese people would be looking, thinking, “ew, sweaty foreigner is literally dripping with sweat in her hands and she stinks *snorts*” but of course I can’t read their minds and know what they were really thinking or if they even bothered to notice. I suppose I was really self-conscious in Japan because it’s been my dream destination since I was young. I always wanted to look in perfect condition in Japan to make a good impression on others so I wouldn’t have to live with any regrets or embarrassment but being in a foreign country by yourself without your family or natives to look out for you, I suppose it was definitely unavoidable. Huu~~ (-。-;

Once we finally returned and stepped out of the bus we found a blue mascot advertising something. We had no idea what it was for but all of us gaijin wanted to take pics with it because it looked so cute. Haha! Now that I look back on it, it was sort of a foolish thing to do but that’s just the bliss of being a foreigner – doing things without even understanding why. To make up for missing out on visiting one of the temples, John booked a karaoke session for us all. I know for myself that I can’t sing but experiencing the joys of a Japanese karaoke bar was a must. It was good as we went in and got our drinks while John sang his heart out with the old hits he knew. I think we were all expected to sing at least one song during karaoke since we all agreed to do so but I noticed that Kim and Karina didn’t sing yet Emily was pushing me to sing a song. I really didn’t want to because I knew my capabilities when it comes to singing and I wasn’t fit nor confident enough to sing in front of everyone. Emily kept pushing and pushing and eventually I gave in and chose a song. I sang Utada Hikaru’s ‘Travelling’ and apparently my voice was so quiet they couldn’t really hear me. ( ;´Д`) Part of me is really glad about that though, ehehe… I left feeling like it was really unfair that Emily insisted on me singing a song when others didn’t even have to. Thank God Austin and Luke pretty much stole the night singing some old classics and Yokouchi Sensei and Emily C (different Emily) sang the best “A Whole New Whole” duet. I don’t think anyone would really remember my singing anyway over all the other great moments in karaoke. Karina told me that since I sang that night I had a piece of the group’s respect for being brave enough to join in the karaoke session. ( ; ω ; ) I cry because I still can’t help but feel ashamed…

Until Day 3 of Japan Trip 2013,

140805 B.A.P Live On Earth in Melbourne, Australia [Fan Account]

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B.A.P’s concert was the first concert I’ve ever been to so I wanted to make a fan account about it. B.A.P had their Melbourne concert last Thursday and my friend Chelsea and I went together!~ She was able to skip the whole day of school and she went to the venue early with her sister and her friends. I was forced to go to school but I left early so I could make it in time.

I ended up getting at the venue at around 2:40pm I think and as I stepped out of the car I felt sort of embarrassed with all the people looking. >< I couldn’t bring myself to look up from my phone and there was actually a lot people already waiting. I think I was too dressy for a concert anyway and that’s probably why people stared… (>.<) Thank God Chelsea saw me and called…

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Japan Trip 2013: Day 1, Wednesday, 19th of September

Last year marked a very meaningful time in my life: my first step onto Japanese soil. I’ve always dreamt of coming to Japan since I was a child but it always seemed like a dream until I sat down on the plane bound for Tokyo.

I’ll be taking the time to update about my trip to Japan last year and will writing accounts for each day. I was in Japan for around 13 days, so I’ll try to update on all that I can with the time I have left before school get’s busy again. I may be including pictures of my face in some of these posts but I’ve never revealed my face on this blog before! (O.O) Hehe, oh well, it’s all in means of showing you what it was like for me in Japan. ^_^

The group for ‘Japan Trip 2013′ all met up at school to take the bus to the airport together. That was the last moment we had to say goodbye to our families before leaving. Kevy (my brother) was still at school so he got the chance to shoot out of class to give me a goodbye hug and kiss. ^^ I gave my mum and dad a hug before getting on the bus too. They were waving outside as well and it was raining. >< I wasn’t even sad to say goodbye, I just hopped onto the bus as soon as we were ready to go. XD I suppose we were all too excited to feel sad with our farewells.

We had to take two flights to reach Japan. The first flight was from Melbourne to Sydney and that was the first flight I had taken since I was three years old. I wasn’t familiar with the feeling of the take off and we even had lots turbulence!! >< I was like semi-freaking out while sitting there! XD I was sitting next to Yokouchi Sensei and Karleen. They were giggling at me freaking out during take off! LOLOLOL I never realised that it’s that loud on a plane too. That flight was around an hour if I remember correctly and then we had to transfer to our flight from Sydney to Tokyo. While taking the escalator I managed to get a huge tear on the heel of my boot. >< OMG How unfortunate… (T_T) At the duty free before leaving Australia, Karina bought a Japanese adapter for me since I didn’t have any Australian money on me. Thank God for Karina, love you heaps! ♡ On the flight to Tokyo I sat next to Karina and luckily we had a row of only two seats at the back. It was going to be around a ten hour flight, so I decided to watch the flight path on the TVs instead of any movies. After a while I actually ended up sleeping and my head kept leaning towards Karina! XD The plane food wasn’t all that great but I ate what I could.

When I finally arrived in Japan we took a bit of a rest and waited for our train passes. The first thing we saw were vending machines! OMG The one thing that I lived by in Japan to get by was:

“First time is always a learning curve.” – Shanny (Japan Trip 2013)

We had to work out how to get a drink from the machines and which buttons to press and all that. Emily was so amazed by how some of the yen coins had a hole in the middle (50 yen and 5 yen coins). OMG It was funny seeing her amazed face but thank God the water she bought tasted like real water otherwise we would have been doomed in the heat of the Japanese summer. XD After getting our train passes we took the Shinkansen to Kyoto. This train was so lovely, it was super quite and the chairs were really comfortable and everything inside the train was very clean. The view outside was amazing and I remember Kim and I having a chat about Yamashita Tomohisa because we were passing through Chiba which is where he was born. ^^ Oh yeah, and they have a really nice and clear voice over on the trains telling you the stops and next locations. Those trains are way better than the current ones in Australia, we really need to improve our public transport. The next train we got was even nicer and it came to be the main train/model that we took during the trip. We were given tickets for specific seats on the next train and I was seated next to this elderly Japanese man who was reading manga. XD Ah, that was so cool to see. I was really tired from all the constant travelling and movement that I got pretty dizzy and I got a headache… (T^T)

The first thing I bought in Japan was a caramel machiato at Starbucks and a tuna onigiri with Kim. XD Haha, I’ve always wanted to try onigiri and I finally did. I have to say that I can’t really get used to the seaweed taste and it made me feel a tad sick in the stomach eating it but it was an experience. o(^∇^)o

When we arrived at our hotel we dropped off our stuff and headed to the department store building place!~~ XD I wanted something decent to eat because the headache was killing me but I was really nervous to order food and I couldn’t make my mind up on what to get. Kim and I ended up getting something together. We went to this restaurant serving Japanese food (some are European and so on) and we wanted to get chicken katsu but… THE WHOLE ORDERING IN JAPANESE PROCESS WAS SO AWKWARD AND CONFUSING IT STILL MAKES ME CRINGE IN SHAME!! We didn’t even look at the menu until the lady pointed it out to us. OMG I don’t understand why our tour guide couldn’t have helped us out when he was sitting on the table not that far from us. >< OH MY GOD~~~ IT WAS SO EMBARRASSING AND AWKWARD! ( ; ω ; ) But hey, what is that saying that I live by?

“First time is always a learning curve.” – Shanny (Japan Trip 2013)

Hahahaha~ We managed to get what we wanted in the end and eated happily!~ ^^ But I still can’t with how bad that experience was… On the other hand I did learn a lot!

  1. Look at the damn menu first and choose something before calling the waiter over.
  2. Just be calm and use your Japanese properly. Don’t freakin stutter and stuff it up.
  3. Eat happily and pay the bill at the door in the tray provided.

What was really crap was after that first ‘eating out’ experience, Emily lost her wallet with all her yen… (-_-) How could that possibly happen?! That is the worst thing to ever happen on the very first day. What’s even worse is that we were never able to find it. Things just weren’t going well for the girl. (T_T)

We got the chance to organise our hotel rooms after and change our clothes. John (our tour guide) took us to Kyoto Station to have a look around and get something to eat. While exploring Kyoto, Kim, Karina, Emily, Austin, Luke and I went over to Kyoto Tower. We had a look at all the expensive souvenirs and I got Arjan a present there. I found a Totoro key chain that she would really like. ^^ When we continued down the street we met this old Japanese man who started talking to us in English. I was totally not expecting anyone on the street to stop and speak to us, so that amazed me. He was talking about how great foreigners are and that Japanese people weren’t very nice towards foreigners as we were when they come to our country. We all didn’t think that was so but he insisted it was true. All of a sudden he whipped out these papers he was practising his English on and got me to read it out loud. LOL He was basically writing the same thing in different words and we told him that his English was perfectly fine. Seriously, the guy was so nice and practically fluent in English. Meeting him was like the best thing ever! I specifically remember having a moment to myself and looking up at the sky thinking about the distance I’ve passed to get there (Kyoto). Looking at the sky seem so different to looking at the sky normally in Australia. It almost felt like I was looking up into the sky of another planet. Australia was a long way away from where I was then.

The second time I had to order at a restaurant was for dinner that night. I was really dying for something nice to eat because that headache still hadn’t passed and I was so lacking energy. I joined up with Karina and Emily and we walked around Kyoto station looking for a nice place to eat at. During this time, it really seemed like Emily couldn’t decide on a place to eat. Every place that I suggested she said no to and she actually wanted to eat at the Italian styled restaurant… (-_-) Why would you settle for something you can get at home when you’re in Japan? I was not going to eat Japanese Italian food if I came there for Japan. I was set on finding some great Japanese restaurant for us to have an experience at. I ended up forcing the girls to come with me to this Japanese restaurant with hardly any customers at all. It was quiet so it wouldn’t be that embarrassing if we stuffed up our Japanese, and I could feel more relaxed in a non-hectic environment. (ーー;)We took a look at the menu and I saw that they had miso ramen which is an absolute must have if you’re in Japan! I suggested it to the girls but they were way too exhausted to be bothered with picking their food so we all agreed on getting the same thing. Ordering went a lot smoother and we eated happily once again. The lady that was serving us came back to our table every so often to fill our cups up with water and we thanked her every single time but she started laughing at us >< LOL! Maybe one “ありがとうございます” is enough. XD I ordered on behalf of the girls in Japanese and the message managed to get across, but after she came back to fill our water she said this:

“Do you guys like this? *pointing at miso ramen*

(O_O) Are you telling me… SHE COULD SPEAK ENGLISH THE WHOLE TIME!?! OMG!! Right after she left, the words just blurted out of my mouth.

“She can speak English?! OMG Guys! SHE’S BEEN PLAYING US THIS WHOLE TIME!!

That just made us all crack up laughing! ^^ That meal was actually really nice and I felt a lot better after it.

After such a long day I was still feeling a bit dizzy from all the motion of the aeroplanes and trains, but I was getting used to using escalators which have been a fear of mine since I was little. My dad used to tell me that if I didn’t lift my feet at the right time the escalator would suck my shoes in and bring me under. XD OMG When your parent tells you that when you’re 2 years old, it sort of sticks with you and that’s why I’ve always been scared of them. However, with taking so many escalators at the airport and at the train stations, I found that I didn’t really need to hold onto Emily’s hand every single time. I used to have to have someone stay with me and guide me onto the escalator holding my hand otherwise I would never be able to do so. ><

Until Day 2 of Japan Trip 2013,

Self Improvement Goals

During 2013 I was faced with some tough times and some amusing times that definitely taught me more about myself and my personality. Some of the things included in this post are pretty harsh on myself but other things are rather ridiculous. XD  This is just another update post for the sake of my absence in 2013. Most of the feelings I had during the year are what have contributed to these thoughts upon myself. Just gotta express my fehls~ (^^; )

I’ve noticed that I seriously haven’t grown since primary school. (-_-) LOL! Since we’re all teens now everyone’s height is all over the place but I never grew. XD The boys have especially grown hell-of-a-lot taller as expected. While I walk through the corridor, I can’t help but feel tiny and defenceless against everyone else. I’m like a distressed ant crawling its way through all these towers of people. My friends Austin and Luke are really tall, I wouldn’t be surprised if they are over 180cm. While we chat to them outside the classrooms, I just realised how intimidating their height is. It makes me feel really insecure being faced with all these tall as people looking down at you. >< I think I may have a fear of tall people now LOL! I even searched this up, there is a theory that the fear of tall people is called “gigantasophobia”. It gets really daunting when they all circle around you and come in close. But then again, they do that intending to intimidate me and make me want to hide from them in fear. My gurl Emily once told me that looking down at me and me having to look up at her is pretty cute so maybe all tall people find me incredibly cute!~ (^_-) BAHAHAHA!! Who am I kidding? I’m just a feg… (._.)

There was a period where I felt like I was really letting myself down and when I reflected on the effect I had on people by what I had done, I just felt like a terrible person; a person I didn’t want to be. That’s why I went through this whole phase of ‘self improvement goals’ to straighten myself out. I wasn’t prepared to let myself become so low, so I had to get my priorities straight and really carry out the kind of life I wanted to have. So here is my list of goals I wrote for myself, quoted exactly as follows:

It’s time to get on top of your workload. If you want to have more spare time to do what you love then you have to pick up the slack. Stop wasting time on your phone, stop procrastinating. Get focussed and prepared. This will require no more free Fridays. You’ll have to work harder to get your ‘you-time’. Spend time in class wisely.
It’s time you re-evaluated your ‘person’. We’ve noticed how oblivious, insensitive and self-centred you can be. Have you ever thought about how you’ve hurt others by this? It’s time you step down and rethink about your actions. Consider other people before yourself. Make yourself the smaller person.
Through all this we ultimately hope you get back in touch with the person you used to be. That innocent, hard-working and strongly moral-ed girl.
Bring time onto your side. Get up earlier, work more efficiently, don’t be lazy and don’t get distracted so easily.

Yes, you read that right. Sometimes I really think there is something wrong with me since I write to myself like this. It’s almost like my mind consists of multiple people dictating what I should and shouldn’t do with my life. And aren’t I a total weirdo for actually writing to myself? I don’t really know, it seems and feels completely fine to me. Oh, yeah, I actually used to be that kind of girl back in the day but I suppose I’m growing up and withering away from that young version of me. (T_T) I’ll miss the old me because that person I used to be was very mentally strong, probably stronger than I am now that I’m older.

I also realised how much I love my mancake, a.k.a Arjan. She’s my maknae but I always tend to bully her but I swear it’s out of love! I don’t tease her playfully in intentions to hurt her, I’m just playing around like the kind of friend I am. There was a time where I didn’t get to see Arjan that often either because she was sick for a long time or I didn’t get to see her over the holiday. I actually really missed her and I realised that by how much I was messing around with her when she came back. XD I was always touching her face and playing around with her hair and there were even times where I gave her a genuine hug and I never do that to anyone ever. Arjan is forever loved by me from deep within my heart, I just never show it in the right way and end up terrorising her like the idiot I can be. XD

Last year was the time where Diana started realising her fangirl feels for 5SOS. We started having more conversations about the feelings she was having that were consistent with being a fangirl. Part of me still can’t believe that Diana has adopted being this kind of person because I’ve always thought she was too intellectual to be like that. She always raves on about her favourite artists and how talented they were so I didn’t think she would easily fall for a boy band and then again, she sort of didn’t. It was the talent of the boys that got her to like them but I definitely wasn’t expecting her to adopt all fangirl fetishes as well. XD Haha, through that I realised how much of a fangirl I’ve become. I suppose I am a full on fangirl but I’m just 0% fujoshi. I don’t like it but I just tolerate it from my ELF fangirls on SNS. >< Hehehehe~

While I’ve been fangirling and posting SJ pics on my Instagram, I met some other ELF from Japan!~~ Since I want to practice my Japanese with every opportunity I get, I ended up making a conversation with her. We became pretty close and we’ve added each other on LINE and Twitter. ^^ Her name is Sana and she’s two years older than me so I call her ‘Sana-unnie’ (a combination of her Japanese name and a Korean title because we’re K-Pop fans). I was so happy to make friends with ELF from Japan but when I went to Japan last year I wasn’t able to meet her… (T_T) I really wish we could go to SJ concerts together, that would be so fun!!~~~~ (´;ω;`)

Oh yeah, last year marked the end of our (all my girls and I) friendship with Gini P. It was sort of hard for Diana to do it but Megan was at breaking point with Gini P silently following her around yet never speaking a word even as she was hanging out with us everyday for two years (well, I wasn’t there for the first year of it though). Megan literally snapped it at her one morning because she really scared Mega. She was just hovering around her while she was at her locker in the morning when hardly anyone was around and when Mega turned around, Gini P was there staring at her! (O_O) That’s some scary stuff bro. Eventually after that she just didn’t bother us anymore. We ended up seeing her hang out with at least three different groups of friends until they all ditched her… We really feel sorry for her seeing her like that but I can’t help her. She needs to quit this whole ‘I’m never saying a word’ act if she wants people to at least accept her. She can’t be friends with others in a social matter if she just never opens her mouth.

 That’s it for this post peeps, hope you enjoyed reading. I’ll be posting about my trip in Japan last year after this post so please anticipate!~~ ^^

Until next time, BAI BAI!!~ ♡